despising its shame

http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/what-does-it-mean-for-jesus-to-despise-shame

what if I like how the blueness of a sky breaks my heart
what if I want to linger in the moment of gazing at waves drawn in pencil, the longing for / of an unnamed place at coordinates far, far away

but... sometimes... I'm walking down the street and a shaft of light falls a certain way across the pavement and I just wanna cry. And then a second later it's over.

I Remember Well

to live is Christ

Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. I eagerly expect and hope that I will not be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

Paul, Phil 1:18b-21

Two more months

Just two more months.

Baby steps.