seek, hide, treasure, ponder, strain

Psalm 119:
9 How can a young person stay on the path of purity?
By living according to your word.
10 I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.
11 I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.

I marvel at how much God has blessed this week - with time to pray and seek, with scheduled and unscheduled fellowship, with deeply encouraging words, with nature, with song, with God-breathed Scripture, with growing desire in others and myself for more of Him. This week especially He's given me glimpses of the richness of life lived with/in/for Him and waking me up every morning with a desire to know Him. I say glimpses because I don't want to forget that He is only getting started. I am desperate to forget what is behind (even what is good) and strain toward what is ahead, knowing He has yet to reveal much than I ever imagined or hoped for, knowing He is still more awesome than I know, much much much more awesome than I know.

Don't let me settle for yesterday's daily bread. Break my innumerable misconceptions about You. Don't let me fall back into the path of pride and selfishness that I am tempted to return to every single second of the day, sunup to sundown. There is absolutely no way I can do this on my own, but with You all things are possible. I've wasted enough time fighting to make myself something of worth, when You call me to lose myself in praising You. You said that "whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it."

Help me to hide your word in my heart, so that I might not sin against you.
Help me to learn from Mary, to treasure up all these things and ponder them in my heart. To never be in a rush, but to actively obey while faithfully doing all things in Your time.

Thank You for the promise that if we draw near to You, You will draw near to us. God, this has been my prayer since the beginning - don't ever let us go back, You will never let us go.
Your kingdom come, Your will be done.