Who is wise and understanding among you?

Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such “wisdom” does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.
But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.
James 3:13-17

Amen.

the week after retreat has been a constant battle against sinful thought after sinful thought, and a constant confusion between godly desire and selfish desire in my heart. I'm too ashamed to write these things down, here, but they are still very much real.
thank You God for convincing me that the four hours of cell group tonight would be totally worth it (as always) and for giving me just the passage that I needed. thank You for people to live life on life with, for nudging me away from the trap of too much solitude, for bringing me back to knowing that I am nothing, just a branch on the vine,
for not giving up on us but continuing to call us to something higher than self.
Let the vision of You be the death of me. Again.

I've forgotten that God does speak to everyone. It's just that few (know to / know how to) listen.

really wanted to blog but don't have any time

ahhhhhh I have so much more to taste and see

thoughts:

- people who give though they have barely enough, who treat everything God gives them as not their own
- fellowship straight to marriage, no dating (???)
- dressing very plainly, looking far from a supermodel, yet being called one of the most beautiful women one could ever meet
- dreams vs. living day-to-day, or dreams and living day-to-day
- give me neither poverty nor riches
- one body, one Spirit
- shekinah at Rice University
- milk and solid food
- servanthood
- angels
- maturity and age, not always directly related
- to be committed to building up others
- the selfish thoughts of becoming twenty years old
- architecture and Jesus

to-do:

- retreat
- de young museum
- brown bbs
- GET BOOKS

thanks:

- new beginnings, second chances
- angels
- fellow believers who love architecture but want to love God more. who want to love God and His people through architecture, despite having little to no idea what that looks like
- a good professor who looks unafraid to push me to my limits
- people who struggle and understand struggle
- opportunity to learn learn learn grow grow grow change change change
- long-suffering and mercy from members of the body
- dad

made to crave

I listened to this Focus on the Family broadcast during breakfast with my mom. Sooo relevant.

Finding Satisfaction in God, Not Food 2

I've never heard anyone talk about food/weight loss from such a biblical standpoint. Alongside the idols of greed, lust, approval, reputation, service, and accomplishment, food can seem like such a laughable matter. But let's be honest, it really isn't (for females, anyways. I don't know if guys struggle with this as much). It's something that has to be laid at His feet over and over again. It consumes more of my thoughts than I'd like to admit - whether it's guiltily giving into my cravings or obsessing over my weight.
how does a true woman of God, a Proverbs 31 woman who seeks first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, go about this day by day? what does it look and feel like to be healthy, in all senses, and live life without that pitiful sense of defeat?

You will not share Your glory with another.
You shall not share Your glory with another.
You will not share Your glory with another.
You shall not share Your glory with another.